Relapse

Apologies to all that prayed for me on this thermo test. I take all the blame. I relapsed into lazyness and stupidity and I beg for forgiveness for my failure to keep myself in check. I ask for forgiveness to my God as well, He has provided for me in many more ways than possible and I pull this one out of my arse. Well the final is still coming and rest assured, I have found my head again and have screwed it on tightly and glued it with superglue that I may never loose it again. God willing the glue will hold for longer than just this spring semester.

Forgive me. I fail a lot.

Internet readings

I probably wouldn't have ever predicted that I would be at Pierpont Commons reading the book of Matthew on BibleGateway.com a few months ago. But then again, the future is hard to predict.

I left my math class with a certain need to read and to my dismay and disappointment, I had left it at home and the bus had already left. Math ended early and I thought about reading my thermo textbook to start off some "early" studying for tomorrow's exam but turned to a computer and actually started to read. I'm actually amused at myself for doing this.

I discovered that reading Matthew with an intent to actually READ what the words meant, rather than skim through for the sake of "reading" for a monthly requirement, reaps many and full rewards for the mind and heart. Also getting a big picture of what Jesus is trying to teach at each speaking session or encounter is hard but I feel that it is necessary to even just try to get the grasp of the parables and metaphors he uses. I wish he just spoke in plain terms to make my life easier! Hahaha I guess if he did it would take away the fun of interpreting the bible.

Well I feel better now. I was overwhelmed after realizing the CRAPLOAD of things I had to do over the next few days, including moving out and packing and all that jazz are mixed in with finals and homework. I was seeking some specific ways that God could help me through that and to be honest, I was skimming and skipping through Matthew to see if I could find it somewhere, but I then realized that its probably not labeled anywhere haha. But I found an old verse that I've heard millions of times that should have popped into my head but didn't. Matt 6:34 - Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Basically, I read it as deal with today first you butthead! Oh and the verse before says to seek the kingdom first. So I guess reading Matthew on BibleGateway.com before class at Pierpont has some value of seeking the kingdom and I should be ok for now haha.

I should get ready for class.